Mother, dearest

I feel so relieved from talking to my mom today. She came over after taking my brother & my half siblings to the circus and we just talked about everything for 2 hours straight. I came to realize that we were so alike when she was in high school, it's just scary how similar we are. You probably don't know why I'm so freaked out so I'll just mention some of the things we talked about.

She always told me to never have a boyfriend in high school but ironically, she had one. Her first boyfriend was in military school while she attended an all girls school so it was kind of a long distance relationship. It was so cute though cause they would write each other letters and once, he gave her all his money after they went to the movies because she didn't have enough money to take the bus home so he ended up having to sell some stamps in his pockets to strangers on the street in order to get home. Ahhh! So cute! (: He was such a nice guy... But anyways, we talked about boys and she told me that:

You shouldn't change yourself to impress a guy. Don't lower your standards, don't apologize for something that wasn't your fault for the sake of the relationship, don't compromise yourself for his benefit, don't make yourself miserable for someone who doesn't deserve that amount of energy/emotion spent on him because simply put, relationships shouldn't make your life more difficult or cause undue unhappiness. If a boy doesn't make your life better, then why bother? A good relationship should only add to your happiness, supplement it, not hinder it. Don't rely on other people because that relates directly to disappointment. In the end, all you have is yourself. Don't waste your time on high school boys because at this age, they're really just too immature to fully appreciate you. Because you haven't had to time to experience the world yet, high school is all you know. That's why every boy makes such a huge impact on your life, like a tidal wave in a pool. But realistically, pools are minuscule. We have yet to experience the rivers, the lakes, the seas, the oceans. Therefore the only thing you can do right now is to make yourself a better person because one day, you will meet someone who can appreciate you for exactly how you are and who you are; and if not, you'll always have yourself and really, who else do you need to be happy?

We talked about so much more but this was the part that I took the most from.
Next week she's going to come over to help me out with prom dress shopping!
Despite my pent up frustration with her, I really do love my mom. (: