Senior?

It feels like soo much has happened since the last time I blogged: finals, graduation, and now summer. It really feels like too much to even describe.

In regards to graduation, I don't think it's hit me that they're really gone. On Thursday in yearbook, it felt so empty without the seniors. It's made me realize that I had been a lot closer to the seniors than with the juniors, which now leaves me feeling kind of friendless. (Time to work on social networking within my own class?) But besides that, I'm so grateful that I did become close with those graduating because the friendships we forged will last for a lifetime(: (Honestly, I’d rather be friends with people who I know will leave than be friends with some of the people who I know won’t. ) So what if I don't see them daily anymore? We'll always have the memories that'll last us a lifetime and those who really are close to me; I know for sure I will see them often, even if they are going to college.
Junior year is over, and I'm sad to see it go. Despite the academic/emotional challenges this year held, I feel as though I enjoyed this year the most. The main reason behind my enjoying this year the most is probably the progress I've made with myself. Life has forced me to change; and I hope, after a long, and often seemingly hopeless, trek, that I've bettered myself. I've realized that bitterness is a wasted emotion, but also that sometimes it's necessary. Sometimes optimism just isn’t enough to get you through the day.
Maybe senior year will be better, but I kind of doubt it since, again, most of the people who I'm close with have graduated. But we'll see.

I'm leaving for Tokyo/Taiwan in 3 days & I'm sooo excited to travel! I can finally get away from this ironically dreary So Cal weather and start over, kind of. Interning alone in another country is really going to allow me to focus on myself, without the endless distractions that I have back here, so I'm determined to focus on thinking more independently, for myself, for once. Can't wait, can't wait! (: